it has almost been 10 years of struggle...my constant struggle with money and problems...18 years old....dad suddenly says that he cannot afford my uni fees...it's ok...get a bank loan, find a part time job...of cos there are times when i really wanna give up..the fights btw my parents at home, the long hours at starbucks after school, early lectures at 8am next morning, the need to get money for my family...but i got thru it... then mum fell ill, relapse of the cancer...we need money again...she passed away in 1999...i found myself a job as a contract teacher..not too bad, i seem to be a natural at teaching...but the constant need to supply my dad with money to pay his debts is really wearing me down...this is beyond my capability...credit cards can only help u to certain extent...when is all these gonna stop? but time passed...it's 2003...i've been teaching for 3 years! but i still have zero savings with no idea when everything is gonna end...making ends meet is wearing me down..then all of a sudden, dad passed away...colon cancer was the culprit...and in august i was diagnosed with major depression, i finally succumbed to stress and miseries...nov...i almost lost my life...but i told myself it was God's way of telling me it's not time yet...it was time for me to pick myself up and move on...June 04, i finally resigned from a job which was giving me no chance to recover...after much considerations, i decided that i have to take a shot and live for myself... Oct 04...i have not found a job...the banks are after me..MOE is after me to pay for my bond...I jus realised that I've been going in circles...my life is still all about these...now i'm lost!
